not just another phrase... to me

During my funeral, which sooner or later will occur, I hope no one utters that awful phrase, that idiotic phrase. I'm talking about the one that everyone either already knows is false or seriously needs to realize the fact. There are many phrases I find bothersome when said in this setting, but the very worst one, the one that wedges itself under my skin is "shes/hes in a better place now." I will not have truely gone anywhere except six feet under. Honestly, I do not believe in this so called 'god' character or heaven. I wish I did. I wish there was someway of convincing me to believe or even hope for such things, but there isn't. So, where exactly would I be going? I do believe I will be gone, and I do believe I will not even process my death. These thoughts are no longer depressing just accepted. Can someone please understand that? I 'pray' that there is no religious based speech at this 'sacred' occasion, though, how will I ever really know what happens?

Don't I receive a last wish?